Monday, 29 May 2017

Review: Supernatural 12x22 "Who We Are" - by sweetondean

I’ve taken forever to write up the final two episodes of season 12. I don’t know why, I loved them both, a hell of a lot! Maybe it’s because I kinda just wanted to savour them without over thinking them, or maybe it’s because once they’re written up the hellatus has truely started! I’ve watched both episodes many times. They were on repeat for about 8 hours I reckon on that first day…just playing as I rewatched them, and chatted on twitter, and generally soaked everything up. They were both so good, full of emotion, and shocks, and times where I literally had to stand up because I just couldn't sit anymore! There was crying, there was yelling, there was random hand clapping, and there was a lot of dropped jaw gaping! I was left feeling absolutely shattered, in the best possible way. My heart had been pounding for the full 2 hours, from love, and fear, and horror, and sadness and just everything the show throws at me. It was a grand 2 hours of epic feels, I loved it!

Warning: Ahead be Winchester-centric gushing.

Have I ever mentioned to you how much I love Sam and Dean Winchester? I feel like it may have come up once or twice…

I think maybe Bob Berens wrote, “Who We Are” just for me. I mean, seriously. Pretty sure he sat down and thought, “Now what would Amy love in an episode?”, and then wrote it! Because right from the get go in the bunker, smashing the walls, with the Yippee ki yays, and the hey lunatics, and the Butch and Sundance blaze of glory, that I swear sounded like Jensen and Jared at any number or cons…it was like all my favourite things were happening right before my eyes. Smart boys, kick ass boys, (sweaty, grubby boys in clingy t-shirts), boys having D&Ms about their lives, with no judgements, right through to genuine hugs, bitch and jerk, and a bunch of the heavy crap they’ve been carrying around for as long as we’ve known them, finally shaken off. 

They were united, and respectful of each other and their decisions. They were a team, equal in the face of everything coming at them. It was like the payoff of everything we’ve seen this season, with Sam stepping up, with Dean letting go of the reigns, with them both on the same page, with no animosity, no finger pointing, no amped up drama. We could genuinely believe in each and every moment between them because we had spent a season seeing them reach this place of harmony and respect in their relationship, and so it wasn't jarring to see this kind of raw and open emotion. They have been side by side and one voice all season. We didn’t have to suspend disbelief that they’d suddenly forgiven each other something horrible, or wonder how they can be so tight after being at odds all season over some nasty lie. This was a beautiful progression of what started in season 11 with new found trust and honesty, and blossomed through season 12 into respect and equality. 

Where these guys are now, it’s somewhere they’ve never been, no matter how hard you look through Winchester coloured glasses, and it’s somewhere I’ve always hoped they would be, because they love each other so profoundly and they deserve to be happy…even if it’s only in what they have together. 

Yep “Who We Are” was a squee inducing, heart swelling bromantic episode. And oh my God, how I loved it.

The fact that Sam, the boy with the demon blood who was destined to lead an army of demons, wound up being the leader he was born to be, but instead leading an army of hunters, heroes, fighting to protect their world and their lives and the lives of others, is something I truly hope Sam recognised. It was a beautiful turn in the story, a full circle for Sam, something he truly deserved, and a place I think Sam was able to get to in part because he knows that Dean trusts and believes in him. The doubts that he may have harboured over the years about how his brother felt about him, the disappointment he saw himself as, have dissipated as the brothers’ relationship has developed into one on a much more even footing. Dean’s acceptance of Sam’s decision to fight with the British Men of Letters, and how he resolutely did not point fingers or chastise Sam when it all went pearshaped, would have gone a long way with helping Sam not to kick himself too hard about that misstep. And even if he was kicking himself, at least Dean wasn’t joining in. 

When Sam decided to step up and be the leader we all know him to be, he was magnificent. As big as a freakin’ tree in the middle of the room, rallying the troops and instilling in them the confidence which allowed them to follow him. My fists were pumping the air as he told the hunters that the BMoL had every reason to be scared of them. I think I yelled out “YEAH SAMMY” at no one in particular.

And then there was Dean’s face, as he listened to his little brother, as he looked around and saw his fellow hunters believing in Sam, transfixed by Sam. The small smile that crept across Dean’s mouth, the look of pride… My God. Seriously, there were hearts shooting out of my eyeballs, and tears…hearts and tears…it was messy! 

I loved that Dean said he saw Sam…this was a theme through this episode, to be really seen. Dean really saw Sam, saw how much Sam had grown and who he’d grown into, and the pride in Dean’s voice, the pride on his face…GAH! I’m making myself all weepy!

I saw you….you’re ready for this…you show those sons of bitches who's boss….You got this…come here… you come back.





I think this hug, the hug that answered a thousand fangirl hug prayers, may be my new favourite hug. I’ve always loved what I called surprise hug, which was when Dean hugged Sam after he’d been speaking to Charlie, just because he was happy to have Sam. That was such a great, out of nowhere hug! This hug here was a straight out I love you hug. It wasn’t a you’re back from the dead hug, or a you’re about to die I’m never going to see you again hug, it was a hug that was just love, plain and simple. It was so raw and so honest and so full of emotion and so damn real. So. Damn. Real. When Dean said, you come back, and Sam said, promise…I don’t know I’ve ever heard them say anything like that before, have I? It was fucking fantastic. I can’t even with how fantastic it was.

Then when Dean said he wasn’t going to fight with Sam, because Sam had it covered, and that he was going to save their mum, that felt totally right too, because that’s what Dean has always done, all his life he’s fought to save his family, fought to hold on to them. Sam was the leader he was always meant to be, and Dean was fighting for the thing that he’s always believed in the most.

Jensen Ackles has done some damn fine work during Supernatural, but I think the scene with Mary that took place inside her mind, was probably his best work to date. 

I can’t tell you how shocked I was when Dean said, “I hate you” to Mary. I clapped both my hands over my mouth. We’ve never heard Dean say anything at all about hating his mum, and as shocking as it was, it dawned on me how absolutely right it felt. I was suddenly so sad, so deeply pained that he’d buried that inside himself for so long. Never uttering the words. Probably never really allowing himself to own those feelings. The guilt that he would have felt whenever those feelings bubbled up, alongside the raging conflict, man, no wonder that guy had been so damn angry for so damn long, all of that squished down inside him! Dean Winchester breaks my freakin’ heart. 

Now facing his mother, who’d been so confusing for him all season, who he’d been struggling to accept and to change how he perceived her, who he felt discarded by yet again, who was now choosing to leave him…choosing to stay in the world created in her mind, because it was easier…choosing to abandon him yet again. That was too much.

I love so much that Dean got to say all of those things to his mother. Tell her the truth about how broken John was, how her children were affected by her loss, what Dean’s childhood became, and the horrors that befell Sam all because of the deal Mary made, the deal that destroyed their family and their lives, Dean, still framing all his pain around Sam’s, because ever single time Sam hurt, Dean not only hurt, he felt he failed, and he punished himself for those failures, and he was right, that wasn’t fair…he was just a kid…and he had to become so much more.

But what I found so magnificent about this scene and Jensen’s performance in it, was that it truly felt like Dean was coming to all these realisations in the moment, like he’d never really admitted even to himself the depth of the anger he felt towards his mother. But as it all came tumbling out, he was not only realising that he hates her, he was realising that it didn’t matter, because he also loved her, because she’s his mum and he can’t help but love her, no matter how wounded he is, no matter what she did, he still loves her. You could literally see him coming to that understanding as those words came out. Then as he forgave her, that small smile drifted across his lips, because in forgiving Mary, he was also forgiving himself for all these feelings, and for his mistakes, and for his deals, and letting it all go. All of this played out in front of us, as it was playing out for Dean, as he worked through it all, as he came to each place and understood it and released it, and that was bloody amazing. 

Jensen was able to show Dean coming to each emotional realisation step by step as he processed that anger, landing in a place of love, forgiveness and fresh starts. I was completely blown away. The first time I watched this scene, I was so damned mesmerised, I couldn’t cry, I couldn’t breathe enough to cry…second watch I howled like a baby, but the first watch, I just stopped breathing…pretty much.

Dean’s plea to his mum to see him, embodied how he must have felt from the moment Mary arrived back on the scene. She never saw Dean, she never saw either of her boys, she only saw what they weren’t… they weren’t her babies, they weren’t the children she knew…she never actually saw them and the spectacular men they grew in to…and I didn’t even realise that until Dean begged for her to see him, “I need you to look at me mum, I need you to really look at me and see me. Mum I need you to see me.” God. That just got me in the gut. Like a physical blow. He wanted his mum to see him…not just to pull her out of her own mind, but because, he needed her to see him. My heart.

You can’t help but think, this here is what Amara meant when she said she was giving Dean what he needed most…this, this moment with his mother, this release from the bonds of anger and guilt is what he needed most. I always wondered why Mary. Now I know.

The thing is, as Dean says later, and as is also touched on in the finale episode, all of this tragedy, all of these horrors, all of these terrible things that have plagued Sam and Dean because of Mary’s deal, have made them who they are, and they are kick ass, they’re great big heroes who save the world. It’s a truly wonderful thing that the brothers have grown to understand this…they’ve both verbalised this during season 12. It’s like they finally understand their significance, and in finding peace with each other, they’ve finally found true peace and acceptance with their jobs.. and with that comes pride in what they do. We’ve never seen that quite so clearly as we have in season 12. 

Then…after lots of epic Jody and Sam hunter action, (I was shitting myself the whole time that Jody was going to die…thank Chuck she didn’t! It was so great to see her!), a couple of epic reveals about Lucifer and Crowley, a kick ass fight between a drugged up Dean and Ketch in the bunker, and a couple of epic head shots by Jody and Mary straight into the bad guy’s brains…we had the amazing Winchester-triple-hug. It occurred to me, even with Mary back, we hadn’t had a moment like this between Mary and her sons, she had never been in a place to allow it, for herself or for her boys. Too much guilt, too much fear, and too much sadness. But now, with both her sons forgiving her…they can start a fresh…


I loved “Who We Are”. It truly represented who those boys are, who they are now,  how they got there, and where they are in understanding who they are and accepting it, as well as who the Winchesters are...all three of them. Dean shed the painful feelings he’s been holding onto since he was four. Sam shed the self doubt and feelings of inadequacy we know have haunted him. Such a lot of burdens that the brothers have carried, finally dropped. Both must have felt as light as a damn feather.

Bob Berens wrote some crazy good shit in “Who We Are” and Jensen, Jared and Sam Smith were crazy good in it. Everything was amazing, from all the action, to all the emotion. This episode shot to the top of my all time favourite episodes with a bullet! I adored it.

And guys, Dean finally got to use the grenade launcher. Love.

I’ll be back with the season finale - I was going to do it all in one, but then I went on and on about how awesome Sam and Dean are (and not much else, sorrryyyy)! So I’ll give your eyeballs a break!

See you soon!

Supernatural Think Tank - Anna's Thoughts on 12x23 "All Along the Watchtower"

I don't think we've ever had a two-hour episode of Supernatural before.  I mean, we've had two-parters of course, but never an actual episode that was two hours long.  This show is going on thirteen years old and we still have never had a two-hour episode.  For some reason I just find that odd.  Last week we had back to back episodes, which is something we've experienced before, I mean TNT runs marathons of Supernatural, although it was the first time we've had back to back episodes on "finale" day.  As much as I can watch Supernatural all day long, and actually have, I felt that a disservice was done by having a back to back with the last two episodes of the season.   I actually felt that a week in between would've better.  Let me explain.  First I will start by saying that I really liked this finale.  It was an exciting hour with an ending that has led to a myriad of possibilities heading into Season 13.   I'm very excited to see where the story will take us.  With that being said, I must confess that "Who We Are", in the way of emotional satisfaction, has provided me with so much joy and contentment,  it was so well done, dare I use the word...."perfect" that in all honesty, any episode that followed, no matter how good, could never compare.  I look at "Who We Are" as the J2 panels at conventions.   The finale was more along the lines of whoever follows J2.   Don't get me wrong,  whoever follows J2 could be awesome and enjoyable and even if you'd never seen them before, you would end up loving them.  Still no matter how awesome that person might be and how glad you were you got to see them, it's Jared and Jensen's panel that you remember the most.  It's they that filled your heart with such happiness.  It's seeing them that has made your life complete.  I know of what I speak, because I speak from personal experience. (I know it's not the same for everyone, but I think the majority understand where I'm coming from).   This is how I look at the last two episodes.

The reason I think that a disservice was done is because having such different episodes follow each other didn't allow the fans the time to fully enjoy the full awesomeness of both for a sufficient amount of time. Sometimes when one episode is deemed superior than everything else done so far, the episode that follows immediately, no matter how good, doesn't get the same love and appreciation it might have gotten if shown at a later time.  There's too much room for comparison and sometimes the emotionally level is different.  "Who We Are" was such an incredible episode that it deserved an entire week of the fans swooning over it, talking about it, and basking in the emotional satisfaction that it gave to so  many people.  It truly earned it's time in the spotlight.  "All Along the Watchtower" was a good episode.  It wasn't the same as "Who We Are", but how many episodes are?  Still it gave us a lot of closure, special moments, humour, drama, and  literally a door to so many possibilities of where our boys can go next season.   It really provided everything that makes for an exciting season finale, and I thought it deserved it's own night so it can be appreciated for it's own merit. 


It's not unusual so see characters we've grown to love meet their demise on Supernatural.   Whether we love to hate them or we just plain have grown so fond of them, unfortunately no one is safe in the Winchester's world.  We've lost some pretty awesome characters in the last two episodes.  Some we loved and some we loved to hate, but all so very entertaining.  I feel like we lost some really good ones this year and it made me a little sad.  I really enjoyed Arthur Ketch.  I will admit to him being among my favourite villains and I loved all his scenes.  He wasn't on for very long, but I myself will miss him.  We lost Eileen too and that one hit a lot of people hard.  I liked her and I liked her relationship with the boys, especially Sam.  I appreciated that not only was she a woman hunter who was quite capable, but she was also one had lost her hearing and yet didn't let that stop her. I really would've liked her character to have survived to fight along the Winchesters in the future.  Rowena.  I always loved Rowena.  I know her character was one that was divided among the fandom, but I always found her to be quite the force to be reckoned with.  She was clever and always a step ahead.  She looked out for herself of course, but still she managed to help the boys on more than one occasion.  I even think, much like her son, that she had grown quite attached to Sam and Dean Winchester.  I loved her relationship with Crowley and had honestly hoped to see more of that develop.   I didn't think she deserved an off screen death, I thought at the very least, if she was to be one of Supernatural's victims, she earned the right to her very own death scene.  I will admit that I do secretly hope that this isn't the last we see of Rowena.  From all the tweets that we've been getting from Mark S. I must admit that his death wasn't all that much of a surprise.  We've often heard Crowley speak of how he wasn't happy with Hell or his job as King.  I kind of wonder now if  Crowley's comments in the past weren't a clue to how Mark was feeling about his character.   Mark tweeted that his was a fitting end to how he'd been feeling.  I guess even Mark felt that Crowley hasn't been really given that much to do as a character for quite sometime now.  I guess he saw fit to go on his own terms, much the way Crowley did.   I will miss Mark.  He made Crowley a fascinating character.  He literally made me like the "King of Hell".  I found him to be snarky, clever and even vicious.  Crowley even showed, to his disgust, signs of actual humanity at one point.  Crowley certainly has done much for and against the Winchesters.   He's been one of the most interesting and entertaining villains I've ever seen.  I think I'll miss him most of all. 🙁 He was the daringest devil we knew. 👹.  As for our angel friend, 👼 I don't really think he's gone.  I'm sure he'll be back, the only question is in what way?  Kelly wasn't all that interesting a character in the beginning, but towards the end I had started to feel for her.  She was a mother that never got to be who loved a child spawned from Lucifer himself.   She fought for her child to the end and her last message to him was one of love.  Hopefully that will be of some importance in the future.  In the end, she had a touching death.


The one thing  I can say this episode did a fantastic job with was to raise more questions.   If this finale's goal was to cause rampant speculation among the fandom, then it most certainly did it's job and it did a damn fine one at that.  I know for myself,   I've got speculations coming out my 👄, what did you think I was going to say👅.  My biggest question has to do with Cas.  I've noticed a lot of people wondering if this was even the real Cas who died.  I understand why this question would be raised.  When I watched the first time, I had noticed that Cas had been a little different when he went in and came out of the portal the first time.  He wasn't completely honest with Kelly when she asked where he went.  There was a moment when Cas looked out the window at the portal that he had what seemed to me to be a smirk on his face.  I too thought at that moment, wait, is this even the real Cas?  Then I watched it a second time and it occurred to me that this most likely is the real Cas, that it was the real Cas that died.  I don't think that A/U Cas would've recognised the boys the way he did.  I don't think there was time for A/U angel Cas to jump into Cas' vessel or even a plan for them to develop such a scheme.  I realised that the smirk Cas made when looking at the portal could've actually been the moment when he had come up with the plan to trap Lucifer there.  With careful consideration I've come to the conclusion that the real Cas was killed at the end of the episode.  The only question that remains is in what way will they bring Cas back?  Will Cas stay dead and Misha get to play a new version of Cas?  A/U  Cas? or maybe he gets to be a really cool version of Jimmy Novak (wouldn't that make Misha happy if he could talk in his normal voice).  That could be so cool.  Whichever way show decided to go on that, what a great way to reboot his character. Cas hasn't really been that interesting for quite awhile now.  An alternate universe could be a really great idea for so many reasons.  One being that Show can literally go from A/U world to Sam and Dean's world, this way Jared and Jensen still get the days off they need, and we get to see characters in another universe that can return because there they aren't dead.  I think it would be so awesome if the first half of s13 was spent by Sam and Dean dealing with the Nephilim, hunting and saving people, and trying to find a way back to save their mom.  Then at some point in the second half of the season the boys enter the A/U world, perhaps with the help of the Nephilim, and search for their mom while meeting up with all the old characters who have died in the past, including A/U Cas,  "dick angel".  I mean that's just one of many ways this new story could take us.  I'm so excited to see which direction will they actually go.  Is Rowena really dead?  What of the Nephilim?  Will he be evil?  There has been some speculation, even by Jared, that because Sam was Luci's true vessel and because he was the one who first saw the Nephilim, that perhaps there will be some kind of a connection?  Jared was thinking more along the lines of an intellectual one?  Wouldn't that be so very cool and interesting?  Could Sam influence the Nephilim to the side of good?  Will the Nephilim bring Cas back?  Can he?  I mean the only one we've ever seen bring an angel back from the dead is Chuck.  Will we get to see Sam and Dean unite the American hunters? Will they create a better version of what the BMOL tried?  There are so many questions.  So many possible storylines.   This finale could breathe new life and open up so many more stories for the Winchesters to tell.  It's all so very exciting. 💥


This is the part where I acknowledge the truly extraordinary talent that is both Jared and Jensen.  These two beautiful souls have once again reminded us of the true heroes Sam and Dean Winchester are.  The real life brotherhood of Jared and Jensen seep into their characters and we all get the privilege to see their authentic bond shine through each and every scene.  I've so enjoyed this season and where the boys are at in their relationship.  It's been such an amazing journey thus far and I look forward to next season as I once again watch these two incredibly talented actors, who by rights should have at least three Emmys a piece on their shelves, bring to life the most amazing characters that have ever existed on television.  Misha did a good job, giving me hope that perhaps the character of Cas can once again find a story and a purpose.   Sam Smith did a wonderful job as Mary this season.  I really liked her moment of redemption for finally getting to punch the devil in the face, but more than that, she sent him to another world that can't get any worse and found a way to protect the real world that her sons are in.  That was a very satisfying moment for me.  I only hope the Nephilim doesn't turn out to be like it's daddy. 😈 Kelly Kline wasn't all that much of an interesting character in my opinion, but I must admit that Courtney Ford did manage to elicit sympathy from me in the end.  I really felt for her during the last two episodes and I thought she did a wonderful job playing at the mother who would never get to be.  Mark P is always a delight and truly the one and only Lucifer in my book.  He  brings both menace and terror, while offering humour at the same time.  Mark has great chemistry with all of the cast and has very quickly become part of the SPN family.  I hope we get to see more of him next season.   What can I say of Mark S.  He made Crowley his own.  Mark has been a part of Supernatural since S5, and oh what a grand entrance he made.  Crowley is truly one of the most entertaining villains I've ever seen.  I will definitely say that Crowley has never been a stagnated character.  He's been villainous, self serving, and often downright cruel.  He's been enemy and frenemy towards the Winchesters.  He's been an addict, and tainted by humanity.  I don't think Crowley ever truly recovered from being injected from Sam's blood. (He is Sam f***ing Winchester after all💪) .  Still though Crowley's character had deeper layers than your run of the mill villain.  He actually craved at being loved.  It's why I think he truly wanted to be the King of Hell.  I don't think it was about power, as according to his speech to the boys, he hated his job.  I think Crowley had always wanted the adoration of his fellow demons.  We've seen him crave the love from his mother and he even craved the affection of the Winchesters.  As far as villains go,  Crowley even managed to have a sense of honour, never backing down on his deals.  Crowley was always depicted as smart, always ten steps ahead, which is why he has managed to survive for as long as he has.  He is after all the only player  on the board who has never underestimated those "denim clad nightmares".   Mark brought class to Crowley and in the end, though Crowley let his hate for Luci and pride get the better of him, he went out by his own terms.  In the end, even though he seemed to have lost, he won, because it was his final act that did enable the spell to work, trapping Lucifer in an alternate universe.  I will very much miss Mark S and the character which truly belonged only to him.  I hope some day we will get to see Crowley again.  He is and always will be the one and only King of Hell. 😈


“I stomped on her face ‘til the white meat showed, and then set her on fire just in case. Ah, gingers. It was messy and screamy, but it had to be done.”
-Lucifer to Sam and Dean about killing Rowena 

“I have read 74 books on child-rearing and there is one thing that they all agree on. Everybody poops.”
-Cas to Kelly

“I kind of always wanted to punch the Devil in the face.”
-Mary to Sam and Dean

Sam: So, why are you here?
Crowley: Well, whenever there is a world ending crisis at hand, I know where to place my bets. It's on you. You big beautiful lumbering piles of flannel. So if you'll forgive my transgression, I'll make it worth your wile.
Dean: Which means?
Crowley: After we put Lucifer back in his Cage, together. I'll seal the Gates of Hell. You'll never see another demon again, apart from of course, yours truly.
Mary: You would do that?
Crowley: Why not? They stab me in the back, I'll happily stab them in the front, the sides and right up their little black-eyed asses. So, do we have a deal? 

Dean: “On a scale of 1 to 10, how bad is this?"
Sam: “I don’t know. I gotta, a hole in reality to a bombed-out apocalypse world? I’m gonna go with 11"   

" I have faith in us. You, me, mom, Cas and Crowley, sometimes.”
-Dean to Sam   

"This is what you do when I'm not here. Type?"

Sam: Dean, wait.
Dean / Mary: Seriously?
Sam: He worked the Cage spell with Rowena, maybe he could help us.
Mary: What if he can't.

Sam: Well, then we kill him.

Lucifer: Oh, no no no. You had your chance. You could have put me back in the Cage.
Crowley: You're right. It is personal. You humiliated me. I-I hate you, deeply, truly. And I'm gonna enjoy wiping that smug, self-satisfied look off your face. Personally.
Lucifer: You mean this one? Come on, Crowley. You know whatever you try, you're gonna lose.

Crowley: You're right. Bye, boys.

Castiel: It's a doorway to another world.
Dean: Anoth-- what, like Narnia?

Castiel: No. No through there it's Earth, but-but different. It's an alternate reality.
Sam: So, it's a bizarro world? Or -- or like that place we got zapped to where we were, uh, actors on a TV show.
Dean: Oh, yeah. The supernatural wasn't real. And you were Polish.

Lucifer: Oh. Sweet toy.
Dean: Yeah, I got it off an old-new pal of mine. See we have this bet, see if it works against an archangel. So, say hello to me little friend.

Well it's hellatus time again folks.   I want to thank you all for taking the time to read my ramblings.  I hope you all have a wonderful summer.  Thank you Amy for allowing me to share all of my thinky thoughts.  I hope to see you all again in October.

Happy Hellatus!!!!🍹

Monday, 22 May 2017

Supernatural Think Tank - Anna's Thoughts on 12x22 "Who We Are"


I just wanted to start by saying that this is the most bromentic episode that we've had the pleasure of watching for I'd say quite some time. Now don't get me wrong, we've had our broments during this season and they've been good ones.  This episode, however, has been an emotional buffet of sheer goodness, just one brother moment after another and I was so emotionally satiated, that I believe this joy will last the entire duration of Hellatus, which has officially just begun.😬  My heartfelt thanks and appreciation goes out to Robert Berens for providing me with more smiles than a face has a right to display.😍 

Supernatural continued where we had left off last week.  Sam and Dean trapped in the bunker, with the air supply running out.  Just another day in the life of a Winchester. The entire scene of them trapped in the bunker was incredibly intense.  It was beautifully shot and despite the actual terror of the situation at hand, as I watched the boys together in the bunker, it felt cosy and comfortable.   I know, what the hell am I talking about? !🤔     I know the bunker doesn't seem all that homey,, with it's dungeon and shooting range and giant computer room and endless hallways,  but this is where Sam and Dean live and according to Ketch,  this is where they were meant to die.  I am likely among the very first to cheer and be relieved that this wasn't the case, and hopefully never will be, but despite the life threatening situation these boys were placed in,  I felt as though Sam and Dean brought a level of "home" to it.🏡  I guess it's because, the way I interpret it,  home isn't a "place" for the boys,  for Sam and Dean, they are each others home and this episode really made this aspect shine through, more than any other episode this season.  We were given such amazing displays of love between the boys  during this episode.  It was sheer bliss to be a witness to all of it.  Sam and Dean's indestructible brother bond, their inspirational love for each other and the indisputable  fact that despite everyone who's ever been a part of their lives, it's only always been each other that they could truly count on was first and foremost in this episode.     It really was a tribute to the fans who have invested their hearts and soul loving and caring about these boys, as they do each other.  Gobsmacked is a word I think best describes how I felt when this episode ended.  What a truly great feeling it was. 💞💥  Can I just reiterate how much  I love Smart Sam.  I was really impressed with his ability to remain level headed and take a logical approach to figure a way out of their life threatening predicament.   The spell they managed to find and jerry rig to suit their needs was brilliant and the fact that Ketch booby trapped the bunker in such a way that magic wouldn't work clearly insinuates that Ketch is totally aware of how clever the Winchesters truly are.  When that didn't work, I really loved how Dean  acknowledged the "brains" aspect of the plan, while at the same time deciding that it was time to bring in the brawn.  Just a perfect example of how well the boys complement each other.   Dean went all old school and just decided it was best to go with muscle.  Thank you Dean Winchester for giving us a reason for you and Sam to wear t-shirts.  Just because you're in a dire situation, doesn't mean you can't look good trying to get out of it. 💪😍   When that didn't work, we got our first special broment of the episode. 💜 Sam and Dean talking about how they imagined they would go out is very much a shout out to the conversations that Jared and Jensen have had  when asked this question at conventions.  I just adored how this conversation and their idea to go out in a blaze of glory led to Dean remembering his awesome toy🔫..No not that one.😝  that he had in the trunk of Baby.  On a side note,  although we didn't see much of her, she did play her part in helping her boys.  I'm not saying I'm surprised by the use of the grenade launcher, I had theorised that Dean would be using it to get out of the bunker, still, the knowing didn't make the entire scene any less fantastic.  Kudos to Mr. Berens for giving us a nice Die Hard moment. When Sam went searching for Dean, his air running out and the panic of not knowing where Dean was, I just wanted to reach out and hug him.   Then the lights begin to flicker and the air returns and that look on Sam's face when he saw his brother at the top of the stairs, utter those words of love that we were all so happy to hear ..."hey lunatic".  My heart just burst of joy.  There was literally bits of joy all over the carpet, quite the mess to clean up. What an awesome broment number two.  I was bombarded with brotherly love and it was only the first 15 minutes of the episode.   I would just like to add that as dire as the situation was and them being in deep💩 , I would like to note how much I appreciated the laugh when Dean wanted to kill Toni so they could conserve air.  Her telling Dean that she was a shallow breather just rang funny to me. I kind of had the feeling she was lying to save her ass when she told Dean she was the only one who can cure Mary, but it was a chance they had to take.  She got hers in the end though, karma can certainly be a bitch.

It was so great to see Jody alive and kicking ass and surviving yet another season of Supernatural.  I love her relationship with Sam and Dean.  Though she's not that much older than they are, she has always seen them and treated them as if they were her children, not unlike the way Bobby had.  Sam and Dean were the children Bobby always feared to have and for Jody, well they came at a time when she had just lost her child.  Sam saved her from having to kill her zombie son, after just witnessing him kill her husband.  There was a special bond that formed between them that day and it continues through the series.  Even Mary recognised the bond that Jody shares with her children. She recognised it all the way back in The Celebration of Asa Fox.  Kind of wonder if Mary might have been a teensy bit jealous at the bond the boys share with Jody, given that she seemed unable or unwilling to connect to her children on a more personal level. I was in awe of the courage and leadership that Sam demonstrated as he tried to rally his troops to fight by his side against the BMOL.  Sam Winchester is the only one I know who can get the very two hunters who killed him to not only fight by his side, but follow his lead.  I loved the honesty that came out of Sam as he took responsibility for believing in a cause that he thought was good and right, and fought with the group who wanted to rid the world of monsters.  He truly believed that the unity of American and British hunters would be a force to be reckoned with and the monsters would lose against them.  He admitted that he was enamoured of the idea that with all that technical advancement and the skills of American hunters that they could win the war on monsters and with that began to follow.  Now he stood up there, among his peers, recognising the mistake he  made.  He realised that the BMOL are just about killing and controlling people .  They believe the end justifies the means.  Sam acknowledged that American hunters are not like that.  American hunters don't just hunt to kill.  They're about doing the right thing, even when that thing is hard to do.  American hunters are about saving lives.  They're about what it truly means to be a hero.  It was truly an inspirational call to duty and I myself would've followed Sam Winchester anywhere at that moment.  Jared did an amazing job here.

Back in S4, in Sin City, Cassie had told Dean that she was willing to follow Sam, as he was supposed to be their leader, the boy king.  The Demon Priest had told Sam that he had seen him as more of a leader.  The plan was Sam would lead the army in the Apocalypse.  As much as he's always followed his brother's lead, he had always been viewed as a leader.  Over the years, most especially this season, we've even seen Dean follow Sam's lead. Though demons had always seen Sam as a leader of demons, in retrospect I think that Sam has always been being groomed to be a leader of hunters.  Sam certainly is capable and he has the ability to get people to listen to him, believe in him and follow him.  I was bursting at the seams as I watched Dean with such pride on his face, as he listened to his brother speak.  There was no doubt in Dean's mind that Sam wouldn't succeed at this mission.  His faith in him was so blatant.  Dean didn't even hesitate when he told Sam that he had this and he would stay behind to save their Mom.  He was absolute in his belief that Sam would destroy the BMOL.   With that we get another memorable moment in which Dean reminds Sam that he's got this and that Sam make sure he comes back.  Sam's I promise followed by their version of I love you....Bitch/Jerk provided awesome broment number three.  Oh my heart. 💖.

The Winchesters just don't fight by each other, they've always fought for each other, so it stands to reason that Dean would fight to save his mother.  At last a practical use for Lady Toni.  She had hers coming no doubt, but it was nice that her last official act was helping the Winchesters.  Oh the sweet irony there.   Jensen did such a wonderful job in this scene.  He was angry, guilt ridden, hurt, sad and forgiving all at the same time.  It was both a heartbreaking and heartwarming performance.  There were many people who had desired a conversation between Sam and Mary regarding what she had done to them all those years ago.  In all honesty though, I never really expected Sam to have such a conversation.  Sam has always been shown to be very forgiving.  I think Sam has accepted and forgiven his mother long ago.  He never really had any kind of relationship with her, so I think it was easier for him to let go of the anger.  In Sam's case it seemed more like he'd been trying to connect with his mom, trying to reach out.  I think he's been trying to keep the peace because he was trying to hold onto what little relationship they had.  She was never there.  She kept her distance.  So what little he did get to see of her, he wanted to make the best of it.
Dean is a bit of a different story.  Dean's had this ideal of what his mother was all his life.  He built a fantasy in his head, remembering her as a four year old.  Dean's whole life was based on revenge for her death.  So when Dean is reunited with Mary, and she's nothing at all like he remembered and shows no interest in spending time with her children, Dean's anger just builds and builds. Mary just continues to betray Dean(and Sam too) left and right, first by betraying his memory of her and then by choosing to work with the BMOL and then trying to kill him and Sam.  Dean knows she's been brainwashed,  hence the reason why he's going out of his way to save her, but it doesn't take away the pain she's caused.  Dean seeing Sam as a baby, his mom cutting off the crusts to his sandwich promising him that he'd always be safe, well that was just about the straw that broke the proverbial camel's back.  For the first time ever, we really got insight to makes Dean Winchester tick. It was heartbreaking and cathartic all at once. He was finally able to just let it go, to display his anger at the right person.   As I listened to Dean tell his mother that he hated her, and heard him as he spoke of her broken promise, her deserting them, and her ultimately making him both a mother and a father, with the duty to keep Sam safe, a duty he believed he failed to do. As I listened to Dean speak on Sam's behalf, of all the pain that he had suffered because of her deal, my mind started to wander and I'd gone back a bit and Sacrifice came into my head.  I know, how did you get from this episode to an episode from four years ago?

I was thinking about the scene where Sam and Dean were discussing what Sam would say when he went into the confessional. Dean's laundry list of sins that he'd given Sam  were not sins against God, they were sins against him.....or at least so at the time it's what it seemed.  But some of them didn't make sense, like Sam being soulless, as that wasn't Sam's fault at all. I think it's safe to say that God had long past forgiven Sam for Ruby and letting Lucifer out,  after all Sam did spend a century in hell for that.  Sam of course took all those mistakes as failing his brother, which is why it was so important to him to finish the trials.  He couldn't bear to fail Dean again, and yet as Sam confessed this to Dean, the look on Dean's face was one of pain and disbelief, he couldn't understand how Sam could think such a thing.  He seemed to be genuinely shocked that Sam could believe that anyone or anything came before him and that Dean saw him as a disappointment.  Sure there are times when we all disappoint, but that doesn't mean we're considered a disappointment or a failure.    I always felt that the list Dean had given Sam had more to do with those being all the times that Sam had caused Dean pain, albeit unintentionally or under circumstances beyond his control or by simply breaking and running away when he believed Dean had died.  Those were also the times that Sam suffered the most and I always thought that Dean might have resented Sam for making him watch his brother suffer. Listening to Dean's speech to Mary though, I think I'd like to rescind that position. Hearing Dean tell Mary because of her it became his job to keep Sam safe, that it wasn't fair and he couldn't do it, I started to think about that list again.  It seems to me, that it's very possible that all of these were, in Dean's eyes, the moments he might have felt that he had failed Sam.  Those were the times in which Dean didn't or couldn't  keep Sam safe.  He died because of his deal and went to hell, so he wasn't there when Ruby preyed upon Sam.  By the time Cas got Dean out of hell, she'd already had Sam convinced that he was the one who can kill Lilith. Of course this led to Lucifer and thus Sam jumping in the pit, which Dean couldn't rescue Sam from.  Cas is the one who was responsible for Soulless Sam, yet Sam lost his soul because he was in hell.  Soulless Sam may very well have been a constant reminder that Dean couldn't get Sam out of hell. I even think Dean recognised eventually, though he never actually brought it up, that Sam not looking, him running away the way he did, was because Dean wasn't there.  Sam thought Dean died and with that Sam ran.  I think that Dean understood in Sacrifice why it was that Sam insisted on doing and completing the trials.  Sam nearly died from them, again Dean unable to protect Sam.     Now I wonder if all of that wasn't about Sam at all.  Dean's anger was based on his subconscious hatred and anger towards his mother.  His mother who made the deal in first place.  His mother who promised that she would keep them safe.  The mother who then left them, leaving Dean the responsibility to do her job, a job he believes in many ways he failed to do.  It's possible  that he deflected his anger that he had with his mom, onto Sam. I think that part of his self loathing comes from the fact that he believes that he had failed to do the job that his mother and father failed to do themselves.

I  keep going back to Amara telling Dean that she wanted to give him what he needed the way he had done for her.   Upon listening to Dean's speech to his mother, I think I finally understand what Amara's gift was.  It was Dean's freedom.  Freedom of the anger and resentment he's held onto for so long.  The freedom of this fantasy he created of his mother, this perfect person, who he had discovered wasn't perfect at all, as a matter of fact she was pretty far from it.  With her death, he wasn't free to express his hatred and anger for her.  Dean spent years of suppressing this anger, and I suppose redirecting it at the monsters he fought. Amara bringing back Mary, who was not the mother Dean or Sam imagined her to be, was finally able to purge all those repressed angry feelings.  He was able to tell her how he felt of her betrayal, to him and Sam.  He let her know all the torment Sam had gone through because of what she'd done and how much he hated her for it, and for not keeping his brother safe.  He freed himself of the anger and made room for love and forgiveness and understanding.   Maybe he can free himself of the guilt he carries for not being able to keep Sam safe.  He can accept that even though what they'd been through was awful at times, it made them who they are today.  It made them strong.  It made them love harder and stick together, forming an unbreakable bond.  It made them a force to be reckoned with.  It made them heroes.  What Mary had done so long ago was as it was supposed to be.  I think Dean is finally able to see and accept that now. So Amara did give Dean what he needed, much the way he had done for her.

Dean reached Mary through love and forgiveness.  She was thus able to confess her reasons for staying away.  Her guilt weighing heavy, knowing that everything Dean had said was the truth.  She couldn't face them and she wanted to make things right.  Her biggest fear was facing Sam, the one who endured so much pain and suffering because of the deal she had made.  She couldn't keep Sam safe that night when he was six months old, and she wasn't there to keep him safe thereafter.  How could she face him?  Truth of the matter is, Sam never felt anything but love for his Mom and never once blamed her for anything.  He, in fact, was the last person in this world that she had to be afraid of.  Cue in the last broment of the episode, which ended with an epic Winchester hug.  💝

So, did I mention how much I loved this episode yet? 💞 If I didn't......I LOVED EVERY SINGLE SECOND....😍  Jared and Jensen were fantastic, superb, brilliant, heartbreaking, kickass, beautiful, just absolutely perfect.  Both gave award worthy performances. 🎖I can't say enough good things about them, well I can but I've written way too much already.  David Haydn Jones, I will miss you.  Love him or hate him, or love to hate him, Arthur Ketch was anything but boring.  DHJ did a fantastic job bringing different nuances to a character that could have been a run of the mill psychopath.  He brought humour and a touch of class to Ketch.  David even managed to make one believe that it was possible for Ketch to have actual feelings.  I really enjoyed his character and will actually miss him.  Elizabeth Blackmore did a wonderful job with Lady Toni Bevell.  She was yet another character in which I loved to hate.  I really did enjoy her banter with Ketch and the Winchesters.  Although Lady T certainly had it coming, I actually felt bad that she never got that head start to see her son one more time. 🙁  Kim was awesome as usual. I really love her relationship with the boys.   Samantha did a fantastic job with Mary.  I  think I might have actually empathised with her and possibly even forgave her for her distance from her children.  I still would like to hear her apologise to Sam. Her scenes with Jensen and Jared were powerful.  I really enjoyed her scenes with DHJ as well.  It hasn't been too bad having Mary back. 😜
Robert Berens provided us with a bromentic filled, heartbreaking, heartwarming, kick ass episode.  It's definitely among the top ten eps of Supernatural for sure.  Thanks also Mr. Berens for the nod to a very much still missed Kim Manners.  He definitely would've been proud of this one. 

That's all for now.  Sorry it ran quite long.  Til next week when I ramble on about our awesome season finale.


"I may be many things, but I’m not stupid."
-Mr. Ketch

Sam: Is this how you pictured it? The end?
Dean: Oh, you know it’s not. I always thought I’d go out Butch and Sundance style.
Sam: Blaze of glory.
Dean: Blaze of glory....son of a bitch

Sam: Wait a minute. So we’re gonna…
Dean: Straight “Shawshank” this bitch

"You're lunatics. Action movie loving, cheeseburger-eating, moronic American lunatics."
-Lady Toni to the boys

"Big, beautiful and dumb. I've had this thing for so long, been waiting for the perfect moment to use it."
-Dean to Toni about grenade launcher

"Ok beautiful...yippee kay yay mother ***"
-Dean to grenade launcher

“We know hunting isn’t just about killing, it’s about doing what’s right, even when it’s hard.
-Sam to American hunters

“We go in fast and hard and we fight. And we beat them down until they give up or until they’re dead. … We will win. We will take down the bad guys, because that’s what we do.”
-Sam to the American Hunters about the British Men of Letters

"They're scared of us. Yeah, good. They should be."
- Sam to the American Hunters about the BMOL

Basically .....Sam's entire speech to rally the American hunters is just one awesome amazing quote.
“I’ll take a jacked-up Dean Winchester over any 10 other Hunters any day.”
-Sam to Dean

"I saw you . You're ready for this. You show those sons of bitches who's boss."
-Dean to Sam

Dean: You got this. You come back.
Sam: Promise.
Dean: Bitch.
Sam: Jerk

"You lied to me. I was a kid. You promised to keep me safe then you made a deal with Azazel."
-Dean to Mary

“You left us alone cuz dad was just a shell. His perfect wife, gone. Our perfect mom, the perfect family, it was gone. I had to be more than just a brother, I had to be a father and a mother to keep him safe. That wasn’t fair and I couldn’t do it. And you want to know what that was like? They killed the girl that he loved, he got possessed by Lucifer, they tortured him in Hell and he lost his soul. His soul. All because of you."

-Dean to Mary

“I hate you. I hate you. And I love you. Cuz I can’t help it. You’re my mom.”
-Dean to Mary

“I understand cuz I have made deals to save the ones I love more than once. I forgive you. I forgive you for all of it, everything. On the other side of this, we can start over. You, me, Sam, we can get it right this time.”
-Dean to Mary

“What you did, the deal? Everything that’s happened since has made us who we are. And who we are? We kick ass. We save the world.”
-Dean to Mary

Mr. Ketch: “I knew you were a killer. You both are."
Dean: “You were right."

Thanks for reading.

Thursday, 18 May 2017

sweetondean's Light on Spoilers, Heavy on AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH Preview of the Supernatural Season 12 Finale






OKAY...Let's get to it shall we... 



For this season finale, for the first time ever, we get two episodes back to back...because according to Misha...who you can choose to believe or not, because, Misha...we wouldn't be able to handle the stress and emotion of a week in between the eps, because they are so bad! As in good in Supernatural is TORTURE!


Here are the synopsis for both the episodes!

12x22 - WHO WE ARE

FAMILY – Caught in a dangerous situation, Sam (Jared Padalecki) and Dean (Jensen Ackles) only have each other to rely on. Meanwhile, the fight between the American Hunters and the British Hunters comes to a head. John Showalter directed the episode written by Robert Berens (#1222). 


EPIC SEASON FINALE – Lucifer (Mark Pellegrino) battles Sam (Jared Padalecki), Dean (Jensen Ackles) and Castiel (Misha Collins) for control of his unborn child. Robert Singer directed the episode written by Andrew Dabb (#1223). 

Could they give us any less information in these synopses?? NO THEY COULDN'T!


Straight up I LOVE the sound of episode 12x22 LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE - except of course we know that stupid Lady Toni is going to be there too...that's if the dangerous situation is being trapped in the bunker with air running out, which I assume it is! much t-shirt action! Important things are important.



Also...what's happening here? Transferring memories back to Mary to reverse the brainwashing? Freakin' love that shirt on Dean...Jensen looks sooooo good in red! He wore red at Dallascon one year, and gee it went so nice with my hair.... But...I digress....

So the first ep is about the Mary, the British Men of Letters, the American hunters and all that jazz....

The second ep is the Lucifer baby mamma drama. So is all the BMoL stuff wrapped up in the ep before? Hmmmm....


And team Winchester! ('Bout time...)

And Lucifer in his sharp new jacket!


So we only got one iddy biddy promo from the it is.... 

I mean...really? A two hour whole night season finale and we got a one stinkin' 20 second promo?? REALLY?

I am loving Dean with that machine gun a lot.....



I pulled this promo apart frame by frame...literally....there's 2546 of them! So I could look at every single image and especially all the quick cuts at the end!


What do you reckon this is??

Is this Rowena's curl? Meep!

Who is the mysterious figure that Cas obviously knows.

Who dies? Like really... WHO??! TELL ME SO I CAN PREPARE!

What the hell is this wasteland place? Did a bomb go off? Is it another plain? Is it a cosmic consequence?


Also... how come they're so pretty?

I NEED YOUR THEORIES...except on the pretty thing....that I'm all over!

What do you think is going to happen? What do you think the cliffhanger is going to be? If we're going to be devastated and need to keep the faith, what the hell is going to devastate us. If the cast were shocked...what the hell do you think shocked them! 

I'm not ready for these episodes...but you know...I totally am. SO, SO READY




UGH. I do not like Toni Bevell. Her snotty accent gets right up my nose. Who knows if she's telling the truth or not. Probably. Mind you, I'm not sure I'm comfy with the boys killing her knowing she has a kidlet, that would be sad for said kidlet. Not that I care a jot about her. Smart!Sam is smart though - go find some damn spell to get you out of there, the Bunker is full of them! 



Here's some more info on the amazing crew who bought us our eps tonight.





(p.s. if you ever need somewhere to briefly focus to bring you back to a happy place...
look at this for at least 2 to 3 hours. It'll help)

Boys at the upfronts today in NYC